i fell down some stairs and now i think my tail bone is broken.. i have a useless ass. its big for nothing...


i can't move...

pain


"hurricane" (strong annoying winds that dont let me sleep) dennis sucks my ass.. i wanted to do something this weekend...



love hugs and kisses,
melli

something funny:

you know you've turned into a nerd when all you do is play with a computer.. and then join the G.M.T.C. (also known as Guys Married To Computers)



THe End..

Fin!

Bonjour!

Arevoir!

Arrivadechi!

Adios Cucarracha!

Fuck you! Yeah thats for you!

so i'm here in Grand Rapids, MI. i love it. its really nice here. Tulips grow in the cold weather, small town.. next to big cities, it kindof reminds me of New Jersey.

Been getting close to my uncle, getting to know the one that i didn't get a chance to know either. this was definitely a trip long past due. i'm really happy .

My uncles bar/restaruant is nice, its called Stockbridge Pub. really cute and old fashioned.


Well, i dont really have much else to say, its only Monday. actually there is something else, I've learned alot about the people that i didn't know or thought i knew. Either way i love them but its really interesting to hear what they were really like... Makes me feel like i'm not the only weird one in my family, i get it from the rest of them ;)


I'll write soon...

PS
BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... its cold up here lol

PPS
I miss you guys, I wish you could be up here with me, i think you'd like it (except for the cold... but whatever)

i had lasik surgery yesterday and angie is currently typing right now cuz i'm blind... carlos can you read this? yes? wonderful...damn you for taking me off!! anyway, in about a couple days i'll be seeing perfectly clear, without glasses without anything. i definitely recommend it!! two eyebrows up!!! ok adios...

Put a X for everything you've done..


(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city (and many others)
(x) saw a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had a serious surgery (Or will)
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) broken a bone
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(x) flashed someone/ mooned
(x) saw a therapist
( ) done the splits
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(... ) done more than just kiss someone of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped... we all have, just admit it!!
(x) shoplifted...
( ) been fired
(... ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
(xx) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
(maybe) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
(x) woke up still drunk the next morning
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x not by choice) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been skiing/snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
(x) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
( ) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
( ) love someone or miss someone right now

Just wanted to see if anyone would actually take time to do this thing






WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY..?

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

How Love-Smart are you? Young Einstein!

When it comes to love you know your stuff. It's obvious that you understand how the opposite sex think, what they like and how you can make them happy. Hey why don't you rewrite the book of love!

How Love-Smart are you? Find out at DatingTips.ws

i can't believe this. how could they take zeta away? i mean that was my outlet. my survival skill. just switching to that channel. now i'm lost forever.. kidding obviously i'm being a bit over dramatic, but it is a disappointment.


anywho, i'm getting my hair done tomorrow, and i'm actually going for a huge change. i think its time i did something for myself to better it. and what a way to start than by doing something to this mop of hair i have on my head. i'm currently bored babysitting for my aunt and uncle (they needed a break..and they want to pay me, so i can't complain). work is alright, i mean it sucks because of my boss, but the job itself is cool. i saw the marlins today.. which was cool. wasn't expecting that, and i saw ugly mermaids and the cutest billy ofcourse. it was promoted by that weird spanish radio station on the am frequency. so it was reffy, but whatever. i wanted to go to Fanfest, my coworker had four extra tickets but i'm going to do my hair, remember big change?!lol

so yeah, i was suppose to go to Jacksonville tomorrow, but it doesn't seem to be happening. i guess we'll wait til next time.
Valentines day is literally around the corner. you know i have nothing against this holiday and considering that i've been alone every year of my life ( except if you count 2003, although i was alone i did get flowers..which i appreciated later on) i think that this is a good thing. and it isnt about me being the bigger person. i think all in all though, its a great holiday, fine that hallmark had a big part in putting it in the Calendar, but still.. and it really isn't all about lovers and relationships (atleast thats what i tell myself).. i think its about all the love in general. it sounds korny but dont you feel good if one of your friends hands you a card or a bear.. some chocolate maybe? its a good feeling to know your appreciated not only by the person thats suppose to but by others as well. ehh, i know i'm rambling.. i can't help it.. seems i'm extra emotional this month.. dont know why though.. well that was my update.

love you all
and if i dont update soon enough:

Happy Valentines Day!!!

I'm just doin this for fun. I wanna see who actually replies and does it...

If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then post this to your journal to see what people remember about you.

so i'm listening to eminem's new cd.. that i've had since god knows when.. i'm drunk as hell... and crispees talking shit... i've talked too wayyy to many people tonight.. but thats ok..my fingers are numb.... is that a good thing? i dont know.. i do know that i've talked to kiko and my cousin whome i haven't talked too in years.. it was awesome..


oh a different note, my brother has to leave to iraq in a week.. that really really really really really really really ( i can't believe i've spelled that right so many times) sad... i cried.. it sucked but i talked to him and he kindof made me feel better.. kindof. it sucks i dont want him to leave..


but whatever.. fullhouse is on.. i goottta go ... love you whome ever i'm talking too.. since everyone sucks on this shit and no one actually listens to this.. ebcause no one reads this.. what kindof friendsare you if you dont even read this shit? i mean really... jobo, pual, rick, carlooos, carlos, ray,...people really we ;ve known each onther for ever now... you'd think you'd be nice enough to sday soemthing instead of being sooo suck insire your own liofew... other people matter tooo..i cared.. care too.. ok?

syre... i think i'm a little drunk...

Wackiness: 44/100
Rationality: 44/100
Constructiveness: 46/100
Leadership: 34/100





You are a SEDF--Sober Emotional Destructive Follower. This makes you a Evil Genius.

You are extremely focused and difficult to distract from your tasks. With luck, you have learned to channel your energies into improving your intellect, rather than destroying the weak and unsuspecting.

Your friends may find you remote and a hard nut to crack. Few of your peers know you very well--even those you have known a long time--because you have expert control of the face you put forth to the world. You prefer to observe, calculate, discern and decide. Your decisions are final, and your desire to be right is impenetrable.

You are not to be messed with. You may explode.

Of the 74197 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 14.3 % are this type.

its that time of year folks, when the money always seems too short, familys always seem dissatifyed until you spend almost all of the holidays with them, and that silly romance comes back.. again (well, maybe just for me)



today was an eventful day, i picked up kiko, drove around, went to cheesecake factory, drove around some more, went to a liquor store completely the opposite way of the house, went to fefi's, drank, went home and got bitched at once again about that silly little curfew they still insist on putting on.

a normal day, with the exception of kiko coming home. its that season again, where i cant hold or restrain my emotions, angie and fefi have that disappointed look on there face, and i have (once again) the face of a women happy for the moment, until three days from now where (and i quote angie) "i'll be a sister again..lol" sad but true, although, ofcourse he says otherwise. why i bother you ask? well, because unfortunately, he brings out the best in me, he makes me comfortable , and he brings that smile everyone complains never shows, and well, because no matter how much i try.. he will always make me feel. if you've ever had that happen to you, where you see that special someone, and ofcourse it has to be a specific someone, that brings that out of you, you'll understand me. its stupid and you know its close to insanity, but for the moment, its wonderful and pure ecstasy. its that feeling of .. completeness ..

i can't say i do this voluntarily, i must admit my conscious is always on overdrive, screaming NOOOOOOO.. STOP .. WHATARE YOU DOING!, but alas my heart says different, and that motherfucker keeps me alive. so i guess i really am a hopeless and even helpless romantic, i wear my heart on my sleeve for some and in my steel chest armor for others. i know it'll never be the way i want it but damn it, the what ifs always kill me, i'm recklous with my emotions, my heart is in the emergency room on a yearly bases, but i can't help it, its me and that who i am, i grow ... eventually from these things.

...BUT until then, be disappointed, but enjoy and appreciate the smile on my face, be disappointed but think that i'm happy even if its for just a little while. because thats the way i see it, and i can't change it. i can try and try to fight it, but it never really works. someone said it best: my personality is strong financially, logically and rationally, but its lost in romance and heart. i lost that battle a long time ago, and i'm happy because thats what keeps me with my hopes and faith that i will someday find what i've been looking for.. :)

i wrote alot, thats awesome, that makes up for a while, doesn't it? lol